Midori no Kaze

Sunday, February 25, 2007

The Summation of 4th Year

It all boils down to this!!! Take note of bold words.

The Influence of Birth Order (from Tickle.com)
Discover How It Affects Your Personality

bambie, your position as youngest child shows most strongly in your affectionate nature.

Similar to other youngest children, you tend to be warm, friendly and loving. By being a youngest child, you felt the natural need for acceptance into the existing social structure of your family. To secure approval from parents and older siblings, you learned to express your affection freely and openly. From an early age you learned that by being positive towards others, you increased the likelihood that your affectionate feelings would be reciprocated. Like other youngest children, telling significant people in your life how much they mean to you is important to you. You probably enjoy expressing your positive emotions and making the world a brighter place.


AYAN!!! According to a dear friend, "find happiness with your friends and family, but don't forget to how to find happiness with yourself."

Sunday, February 11, 2007

I See My Time Is Not Valued

I think I'm in that stage where teenagers feel they want to break out of their shells, but feel underappreciated and are just so frustrated with life. It came a few years late but i'm guessing even I'm not excempted from this. Things would've been so much different with mommy around.

It seems like my childhood is not valued. For God's sake I want to be normal and go out whenever I want. I have a license I can't use and I end up home alone anyway. If not, I end up hanging out with people who can talk about nothing but other people. Small minds discuss people, big minds discuss issues.

It seems that things important to me are not seen as important by other people. And I really dont appreciate belittling comments. I know I can be mean, but don't generalize it across situations. I don't go telling people the instances you are mean. Afterall, I respect your feelings even if you don't respect mine. I don't appreciate jokes about things I work hard on or comments on things I tell in confidence. Fyi, it's not polite, and it makes me trust you less. Actually, it makes me realize I shouldn't tell you anything.

Ultimately, my time is not valued. Afterall, it's only work anyway right? If not, it's for listening to the whole world, making salo ang being there for everyone even when I have to put my life on hold? But when it's my turn, it's NEVER VALUED. I guess it's my fault narin for letting it get to this. Good thing there are a few people who do value my time. They're called true friends.

Friday, February 02, 2007

I Spoke Too Soon

So much for everything falling into place...apparently not yet. I spoke too soon when I said things were getting better. I'm back to being the lonely ball of stress. I'm quite tired of taking care of the whole world and thinking of everybody and being the taga-salo. Well, I can't really ask people to take care of me and think of me, so at least I should take care of myself and think of myself because in the end, it's just you. You're born alone and you die alone. Pissy? You bet I'm pissy. No it's not the hormones. I'm not due for another 2 weeks. It's just something I thought I stopped feeling, but apparently I still do. It was just something I managed to shut off temporarily. Sometimes, I'm glad for work to keep me company. It helps me forget.

"Be selfish and selfless at the same time." - Kuya Wap